I was born on Monday January 10, 1949 Although Ayla has been aspect of my self for quite some times, I only came to reccognize her on Friday June 13, 2008.
I guess it all started in my mother's head... Between my brother and I, mother lost a set of twins at birth; this time, she wanted a daughter. Well it did not happen that way...
Probably unaware of the consequences her behavior would bear on me later and, certainly not out of malice, she let my hair grow in long curls that would fall on my shoulders. What else did she do during my early years that I do not recall?
During primary school, I was more at ease to play with the girls than the boys.
At the age of eighteen, mother did a permanent for my hair, she told me that it was "in style" and that it would look nice on me... Of course I jumped in the swimming pool as soon as she was done and the thing did not hold.
One of my traits of character is to be audacious; during my marriage years I felt at ease to shop, take time to examine and compare different models of underwear for my wife; little did I know then, that it would serve me later...
Later (1985), I was thirty six and just divorced (nothing to do with cross dressing), I started like some of us to purchase women underwear, just for the sexual thrill I would get from it. I was overwhelmed by the softness of the material; I was not aware, but deep inside the process had started, my feminine aspect was beginning to take its place. None of those panties have survived; my new girlfriend, at the time, did not appreciate...
The urge to wear women panties resurfaced in January of 2000. There again it was strictly sexual.
Then I met this wonderful woman in 2008, best friend ever. She pushed my limits: public outings. Ayla grew stronger, closer to my emotional and spiritual selves. I can now say that I feel a more complete and a better balanced person.
